warmish

The colors fade and mix.
Melting in the heat of mediocrity.
A blinding darkness.
Splattering grey and blacks.
Suffocating my eyes to blindness.
Textures, felt on the tips of mental fingers.
Groping thoughts,
searching the chasm of inner self.
Cycling through phrases with no meaning or relation to the next.

Drain.

I drag around this cold with me.
The lozenge won't do anything.
Just keep the ice insulated,
projected, steeply complicated.

Spring can't come soon enough.
It won't get here soon enough.
What you said was true enough.
Unknowing you were true enough.

An explanation here
just behind my tongue,
but telling you would render
all the work undone.

Is it too much to ask
to not have to break my back?
Is it too much to ask
my mana to untap?

back to it

I left a sizable gap in the chain
hope remains that it's not to late to get back on the train
lest my brain pulled from the station
leaving me empty handed
gasping at straws
assigning the blame
racing in the same track night out and day in
laughter might one day find it's refrain

real deal

The words turn sour in my mouth.
No need to exit the room,
but,
you had no choice after that did you.
First impressions are not lasting
if every after moment is a tarnished truth.
My tact was never present but it seemed so genuine.
Until you got to know me.
Until you learned that it was genuine.
Now you see that the desperate torture I deal,
is no more a threat then it is real.

did not

The lot didn't quite make it
the long way we hoped it would
falling short is a career choice
and my nose is familiar with the pavement here
pass the word up the chain
I succeeded as you thought I would.

open wound

Distance made my heart grow fonder
but fonder of the distance.
I miss no part of where I have returned to.
If you fail to recognize my pain,
you fail to recognize the man you met.
So many days have passed since I made birth,
and not enough to erase the hurt.
Without a care for those beyond your scope of emotion.
With no regard for those that do not share your name.
We cary on, with an air of innocence.
Acting oblivious to the self inflicted pain.

regrets

Not quite diamonds that you cut your teeth on
but the blood ran just the same
time wounds all heals
and only parents are to blame

Words create def ears
upon the broken drums we crash
regret is something earned
without a though of the backlash

strong

How much can words besmirch you heart?
How steeled must my emotions be?
Are we so weak that merely spoken vibrations can rattle the walls we have built?

27

before my back is broken
before the words are spoken
with flashing something golden
i am just a passing token

energy

Just say the magic words:
Regain
Recover
Focus
and the world will new align.
Before the very eyes of disbelieving future, mine.
With proper inc and branding,
all the worlds your pet.
Without regret,
You too can swim in pools of gold.