Neglecting the lighthouse

It was far too late
when I realized it was me.
When the dawning light shone across my face.
In that second that my life dawned upon me
I had gone to long
not making any choice,
not steering my own sail,
and now the rocks have strewn my life.
I can only blame myself,
but
there was never any warning.
No one manned the light to tell me
that the life I lead Is mine.
There was never that great moment
when someone looked me in the eyes
and said
"Do you not know that
you are the only person
who can choose your outcome?"
"Let not the thoughts
of others sway
the way you walk your path"
With the proper information I would have lived my life more full.
With the proper time to do it
my choices would have been less reluctant.
but
Here I am
and there I will never be

In this bitter
brutal end
the only one who shoulders blame is me.